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saddened christmas

Sendong wreaked havoc in Cagayan de Oro and Iligan. SAD for this tragic event is an understatement. I felt very blessed and thankful for what I have and what I don’t have. I always had this feeling..its been weeks..some sort of negative vibes. My friend Risa knew about this, in fact I’ve told her something bad is gonna happen but I don’t know exactly to whom, where and when. My strongest deduction is that I or someone close to me shall meet an accident related to vehicles. It did not happen for the last 3 weeks. Few days ago, after days of pondering I thought if it will not happen to me then it will involve some sort of massive killing. Been so busy over the christmas rush and exams week so I was not able to attend to the news since Thursday. Learned about the typhoon coming last Friday and kept my cool not knowing it was serious. Maybe its paranoia or something real, deep inside I knew something must balance realms of life. I am extremely scientific, to the extent I do not have strong affinity to God. However I constantly have a certain semblance that whenever things are high, there will always be an equal and opposite reaction. Law of physics? law of attraction? what’s the secret? This is why I am not a fan of uber happiness. The greater the magnitude of happiness, the more grave shall be the attracting negativity. This belief is not healthy and satisfying and not even close to fiction, I just know it. Maybe I should blog more, to let go of my thoughts and to ditch something that is to come. 

Anyway, Christmas is here and let’s spread the love. There is no better way to counter the cynical than to touch the depths of our hearts. Just finished cleaning my closet for Sendong victims..shall be joining with other UP teachers and students tomorrow for the cause. Blessed Holidays to all of us.